For years and years, I was convinced that I was suffering from a personality disorder. Or rather I convinced myself that there was definitely something wrong with me that I just couldn’t control. I blamed everyone around, from the bank teller who didn’t smile while serving me, to my ?? who i was convinced had it out to get me in one way or another. Not once did I ever think that perhaps it was not them, but that I lacked control over myself. I took many “self diagnosis” tests on the internet. I branded myself as having a Borderline Personality Order (BPD).
So what is BPD? Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) is a serious mental illness that centers on the inability to manage emotions effectively. The disorder occurs in the context of relationships: sometimes all relationships are affected, sometimes only one. It usually begins during adolescence or early adulthood.
Four years ago I learned about Cognitive Behavior Therapy (CBT). Cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT) is a form of psychotherapy that treats problems and boosts happiness by modifying dysfunctional emotions, behaviors, and thoughts. Unlike traditional Freudian psychoanalysis, which probes childhood wounds to get at the root causes of conflict, CBT focuses on solutions, encouraging patients to challenge distorted cognition and change destructive patterns of behavior.
I started to practice CBT, specifically the concept of mindfulness through everyday mediation and visualization techniques. This is something that as kids, a large majority of us never learn. This concept and its teachings has given me a new way of living. I am able to find solutions to my problems, regulate my emotions, express myself openly and most of all I have numerous budding relationships that is built on love and genuine care for the next person.
You can overcome certain types of obstacles in your life, if you want to. If you are able to recognize that behavior which is destructive and decide that you wish to change that behavior today, you can do it! By changing your way of thinking and habits that have formed over time, you too can improve the quality of you life. It won’t happen overnight, gradually over a period of time, you can replace the bad habits and ways of thinking with daily, positive reinforcements that can help you achieve great success. Start today, so you can build a better future.